what is life like without you now that you have left me alone with my broken heart bleeding and crying??? why is it always like this whenever i love someone, is neither their parent object or that they found someone else.....



well i know i have miss the chance but hope time can rewind and back to the time when i made the mistake... maybe such thing will not happen and maybe we will be together.......... even though we can't meet often but that is also a test to us seeing how well we trust each other and not lying to each other........ well now that thing have turn out like that then i have got nothing to say but hoping that we will be back together............ since now that you have found someone else then maybe i also can do nothing cause it is your choice and i also not your whoever that is able to change the decision that you have made........ well if you have ever like someone else then go for it if you think it is the right thing after all those time that we have been through.....





now there are thing that always thinking in my mind......
what is love?
love is a form of action that you like someone and is willing to wait for her/him and is an uncondition action that require nothing in return.....
must a couple always meet everytime?
well sometime it is better that they are left alone for some privacy but too long is also not a way to let the relationship last long......
well that what i think love is like but why does it not seem that way after you left me!!!!!!!!!!!! what am i to you after all?? i didn't mean to hurt you but now that you left me my heart is bleeding and my mind is so unclear:"( what is it that you want???? what happen to those thing that we had done together and those word that we have said?????? can you really bear to just leave me hanging and dying like that???????




well thanks mei and qiao min for being there for me but is like i really dont know what to do but i will no longer be the same cause i have choose to open up my heart like what you all said but i was hurt once again leaving me a bad wounded and that i will NEVER TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE. cause they are all a liar and will only hurt me so what the point???? well truly hope that one day we will still be together like what you all had said la but is like totally impossible lor..........
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now i really don't know what to do:"( i am really scare that i will do foolish thing again like what you have saw on my wrist:( it is like that always:( now that i don't have everything and have lost too much, maybe i wont mind losing my life too la anyway it is like nothing and nobody will bother me anymore cause i am nobody to anyone life.............. well mei i don't know whether you will see this blog or not but hope after you see my post, don't stop me cause i wish to just let my blood flow down my wrist and slowly let those wound heal with those people who are beside me,their loved and cared.... well hopefully you will see this blog and that i don't know what your reaction will be but i am no longer using death to threaten or to keep your heart cause i know it can't do it but it is the way i am after what you taught me si xian. thank you:) i am just using this method to relieve the pain in my heart and nothing more so if you think i am threating you then so be it cause it is your own thinking and i can do nothing...... well don't think anybody can try to stop me this time round cause i am so determine to do it and maybe after that cut,it may have change my life soon:)







for those who have hurt me, let me tell you something, i wont be the same old TAKASHI ever again no matter what lie in the future!!! i will no longer be the same now that you have hurt me and kind of don't blame me for my attitude changing or my character cause i was no longer born from a FAMILY, but from your heart. i will be more evil and more devilish when you meet me the next time cause i dont have a heart anymore thanks to you:( i will forever fucking hate you!!!!!!!!!!




well if you ever read this then let it be cause after all it is your choice and i dont know what to do also that why i choose to type it out here... hope after all this you will understand how i feel:( byebye