Friday, May 28, 2010
6:38 AM
well rather a shag day already.............
well i have been kick out of school and that is cause of my fucking mother for sending the army letter to the school and that the school have decided to kick me cause of my case and that cause of my mother............. hate her forever and that i will no longer take her as my mother anymore casue she is not fit and that she should not bother my life anymore.......... have she not think what about my future after i left school without a certification and ya does she really think that i will want to study when i am out of army???? ya army can escape law then when don't people send their child to army when they commit a mistake against law i at least now i go my own ways and not her control anymore and thanks to her, i am doing goverment service cause i will be entering navy school so is something like what i am doing now la still close to the sea and that ya i am going to go against her for doing it and enter the navy school:) well truly hope that navy school will be a better school like i am having now cause thanks to her i lost you qiao min:( really can't bear to leave you and that i really enjoy the time spend with you and helping you with autocad:) well next time after i finish my army study i will defentily ask you out for a meal cause you have always been a good friend to me and that i am sorry to not be there for you anymore:( well at least i make a good choice that is to ask evon to pei you to school cause i am worry for you going to school early in the morning cause you are so small and so easily be a target to people who want to take advantage of you:) well hope you will learn from your autocad and take the first place in class:) well goodbye all my friend:(
well baby i don't know what are your thinking but i have already no longer have a good future and that i dont know what your parent will think but hope that you will wait for me cause i really love you:)
well sorry meimei to bring you this bad news but i really don't know what to do after i got kick out that why so i find you but now at least i know i got three good friend in life, you ying jie and qiao min:) well now hope things will turn out will bah................
well is it trying to forget you is so hard and painful? all i just wish is to move on with life and not be trap in the past between you and me that why i choose to give up on you and giving up waiting cause now even me myself is also not in a very verygood condition cause i don't have a school and that maybe i will be entering army earlier and that maybe you are happy bah cause you dont have to see me and even think of me but i really miss you but now i will try going through this painful moment and move out of my past between you... well wish you luck in your life and that i will always be there for you if you need me but i don't know if you will after all need me or not so i won't bother but wait:) well hope your mid year is going well and that your have got perfect grades to show your parent bah... even if you dont you still have end of year so dont give up and maybe you can start forgetting me bah:(
well that all and goodbye if i enter army then i will post up again:( bye bye bloved blog:(t least now i go my own ways and not her control anymore and thanks to her i am doing goverment service cause i will be entering navy school so is something like what i am doing now la still close to the sea and that ya i am going to go against her for doing it and enter the navy school:) well truly hope that navy school will be a better school like i am having now cause thanks to her i lost you qiao min:( really can't bear to leave you and that i really enjoy the time spend with you and helping you with autocad:) well next time after i finish my army study i will defentily ask you out for a meal cause you have always been a good friend to me and that i am sorry to not be there for you anymore:( well at least i make a good choice that is to ask evon to pi you to school cause i am worry for you going to school early in the morning cause you are so small and so easily be a target to people who want to take advantage of you:) well hope you will learn from your autocad and take the first place in class:) well goodbye all my friend:(
well baby i don't know what are your thinking but i have already no longer have a good future and that i dont know what your parent will think but hope that you will wait for me cause i really love you:)
well sorry meimei to bring you this bad news but i really don't know what to do after i got kick out that why so i find you but now at least i know i got three good friend in life, you ying jie and qiao min:) well now hope things will turn out will bah................
well is it trying to forget you is so hard and painful? all i just wish is to move on with life and not be trap in the past between you and me that why i choose to give up on you and giving up waiting cauase now even me myself is also not in a verygood condition cause i don't have a school and that maybe i will be entering army earlier and that maybe you are happy bah cause you dont have to see me and even think of me but i really miss you but now i will try going through this painful moment and move out of my past between you... well wish you luck in your life and that i will always be there for you if you need me but i don't know if you will after all need me or not so i won't bother but wait:) well hope your mid year is going well and that your have got perfect grades to show your parent bah... even if you dont you still have end of year so dont give up and maybe you can start forgetting me bah:(
well that all and goodbye if i enter army then i will post up again:( bye bye bloved blog:(t least now i go my own ways and not her control anymore and thanks to her i am doing goverment service cause i will be entering navy school so is something like what i am doing now la still close to the sea and that ya i am going to go against her for doing it and enter the navy school:) well truly hope that navy school will be a better school like i am having now cause thanks to her i lost you qiao min:( really can't bear to leave you and that i really enjoy the time spend with you and helping you with autocad:) well next time after i finish my army study i will defentily ask you out for a meal cause you have always been a good friend to me and that i am sorry to not be there for you anymore:( well at least i make a good choice that is to ask evon to pi you to school cause i am worry for you going to school early in the morning cause you are so small and so easily be a target to people who want to take advantage of you:) well hope you will learn from your autocad and take the first place in class:) well goodbye all my friend:(
well baby i don't know what are your thinking but i have already no longer have a good future and that i dont know what your parent will think but hope that you will wait for me cause i really love you:)
well sorry meimei to bring you this bad news but i really don't know what to do after i got kick out that why so i find you but now at least i know i got three good friend in life, you ying jie and qiao min:) well now hope things will turn out will bah................
well is it trying to forget you is so hard and painful? all i just wish is to move on with life and not be trap in the past between you and me that why i choose to give up on you and giving up waiting cauase now even me myself is also not in a very good condition cause i don't have a school and that maybe i will be entering army earlier and that maybe you are happy bah cause you dont have to see me and even think of me but i really miss you but now i will try going through this painful moment and move out of my past between you... well wish you luck in your life and that i will always be there for you if you need me but i don't know if you will after all need me or not so i won't bother but wait:) well hope your mid year is going well and that your have got perfect grades to show your parent bah... even if you dont you still have end of year so dont give up and maybe you can start forgetting me bah:(
well that all and goodbye if i enter army then i will post up again:( bye bye bloved blog:(
Will you ever notice me and love me again...
Friday, May 21, 2010
6:48 PM
Hello back from posting.....
Well recently a lot of thing have change lor........ Is like thing now are perfect but also not too perfect lor..........
Well in school is getting better cause at least now I got a friend in school and is in a very big gang of friend playing, studying and slacking together even lunch also we do together:) well I would like to thank the person who make me realize that there are still friend that can be trusted and are good and won't betray me:) haha thanks a lot but I won't be your bf bah cause you already got one and I also not interested in you cause I only treat you as a very good friend of my so maybe it is good to stay like that la:)
Well I don't know what happen la Regine but maybe cause of your family problem that cause us not able to meet up much often la but never mind, I here want to tell you something that is I miss the time we spend together doing stupid thing and gossiping about thing and of course slacking together:) well I hope thing well not turn out worse and hope it will turn better la cause after all I really hope that we will return back to time again la. Well Hope thing will turn out better bah.......
Well yesterday the school teacher who is an ex police officer ask me to write a statement about the two police case and I just suddenly felt so uneasy lor maybe cause now I have stared to forget about those thng bah cause they are not important to me and there seem to be no use remembering it cause you have taught me that people like you are not a worth making friend and I don't know why you will still not drop the case la. You think you will win? So what if you win? Do you think you have truly win the game? I tell you, you have lost the game cause you I am still as cheerful as last time and you have taught me a valuable lesson unlike you who have lost many thing and have not learn anything cause you are only hurting people and haha nw I one why your boyfriend will leave you, cause you are a bitch and that they can't stay long with you.
Well now I am starting to let go of you and like what some say, when the time I let go of you, that doesn't mean that I forget you but is cause I love you too much. Well Jesslyn, I ask you something have you ever love me before? Why does it seem that you and I are not like a couple lor cause it is like you treat me so cold and you think it is the right way? Then what am I to you? I don't know but I got a feeling that you don't love me and that I feel the distance between us are going further apart lor. Is like maybe I think we should just go our own way bah cause it is like I think we are not mean for each other lor...... Well now I maybe should let you go la after all you always like give me a cold shoulder la so maybe I just let it go lor since you like your ex. Well as for her, I don't know la cause it is like the chances getting back with you are very low lor further more I also don't know when you are going to break with him but all I know is that I am going to move on with it but I love you a lot that why I choose to move on. I also don't know whether have you forgiven me or not and that there are lot lot of thing I also don't know........ Well I hope at least I can sms you la and get to know you but after all now I also never see you so I don't know how much you have change but I think you have grown prettier bah:) well now I will just move on with my life and hopefully one day I will be able to be back with you:)
Well that all bah so maybe I trying updating using my phone lor next time:) byebye.
Will you ever notice me and love me again...
Monday, May 3, 2010
8:02 PM
hello reader, back to posting in my blog again.........
recently a lot of things happening and i am so shag now that i don't have the mood to bother about things again.......
at home,just yesterday, my mother try to kill herself and started drinking dettol quite a few cup and try to jump down the buliding...... shag sia, everything is like my fault and i am just trying to fight for my own right that all wah... is it that hard to just fight for my own right........ is like everything in this world is like my fault and i can't even fight for my own right.... i really dont know what to do but i will stay strong and face every problem myself after all that is how i am from the past.......
well to all my friend whom i have known from the world not within me, well it is to say sorry that i have been ignoring you all cause nowadays i have too many problem and i dont know who to face to:( truly how that i will find someone whom i can talk my true heart out and that who can understand how i feel....... for those who have betray me and hate me, i leave it so cause after all for now what you did is like useless, why would i want to waste energy to hate somebody when hating the person drain up so muych energy? what the point? why not just let down the hate and try making friend with that person? like what i heard from a officer,another friend better than another emeny... that sentence make me think alot and i think he say was right... so i dont give a dam and gina i here tell you that all those money that i owe you i will try my best to pay you back asap and that i hope nothing will pop up again or maybe i will start to keep my distance from you........
well to say la, recently i have been think of you lor, is like ya the time we spend is only like 2 months but this 2 month to me is like 2 years already and i truly can't forget you and even to let go of you, i think of those time we spend at xg,tampine,bugis and even vivo and those moment are forever in my heart and i like keep on missing you,to say truly la, i miss the time we spend together, those time when i kiss you,hold your hands,hugging you, is like i can't forget those thing already and to tell you, i truly hope to talk to you everyday and chat with you and be there for you when you need me the most cause i love you too much..... i still remember that time you ask why i love you, now i tell you. i love you cause i love those time where you have to make me worry. i love you cause i love the time where you always hug me, i love you cause even if there are other girl out there much more beautiful girl out there,but i still love you cause you are the most beautiful girl in my heart and in my eyes,i love you cause i know that i shouldn't love you but i dont know why but i just love you..... it is like when we are together i feel that all the the stress and trouble in my life have some how disappear....... for now, i shall truly and whole heartedly wait for you and of course hoping that my life will turn back normal.... well now i only worry is one thing. how you look at me after all those thing that have happen to me as you know quite a lot of thing and i am very scare that you will not love me cause of that only cause after all you only heard one side of the story and i didn't get a chance to tell you my part... well to say la, after i remember everything,i start to miss you more and more and that those memories seem to stop forgetting itself causing me to miss you more and more... well i truly hope one day i can send you a message and start talking to you and be friend with you.... for that i won't bother what other people say or even think cause it is my life now and i have the freedom to run my own life,not other running it. well at here if you happen to see it, i give you an advise that is, you can't study alone without help so not just try to read your textbook more and ask people who know how to the question and if can try ask teacher for help cause teacher know how to do it and sometime got a more easy method to do it... well for math try doing your textbook exercise and if you can try playing some smooth music, it will help you to focus more and relax your mind more..... and before you sleep try reading your textbook once and think of it when you are sleeping, the next day you will find out that you can remember it already... well good luck for you mid year and do your best ok? hope you will do well and even if you don't do well, you youself know that you did your best and try to acheive a better result for your end of year lor. well hope that thing between you and me turn out well. well i will be always there for you if i can and i will wait for you till the day you become me again:)
well that all i will post and hope i will update soon again.....
Will you ever notice me and love me again...
