What is love?

~~Wednesday, March 31, 2010~~

3:47 AM

well look like today will be my last day of clean life as i will have to go to CID tower for some case and i don't know how long will it delay so i was hoping that nothing will change much after what i did and ya now is WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! i now like can't trust anyboby except my close friend and BABY>.<

well baby i don't know what to say la or whether you had read my blog or not but i will here tell you one thing is whether will your love last till like two to three year??? And is 2 to 3 YEARS!!!!!! sorry baby but i hope the case won't delay to your birthday and i was hoping to celebrate your birthday with you this year so hope you won't be alone this year and of course i would get you a ring so i hope will be as soon as possible...... well ya baby i should had already trust you for everything and ya that girl really is a mad dog and should be send to the mental hosiptal...... well baby if something were to happen then i don't know how would life be for you after thing had happen but i know this would be a test for both of us.To test whether our love is truly that strong to endure the time we had to be apart and that after this all this you will truly still be there to wait for me, i truly got nothing to say but all i can say is i truly love you baby FOAREVER!!!!>.< but if you were to find someone who you think is worth for you loving then go for it and don't wait for me..... i here don't know what to say if you realy found one but i will give you my blessing ok? Love you^^

well thanks to those who had supported me during this time and if this time i am going down i will bring as many down with me as possible so as to make sure the pain she endure will be twice of my and the harm she cause to me won't be only to me but her friends around her and i will make sure your life won't be that smooth sail from now onward......

well now truly hope that someone will help me and save me from this mess... WTF.... well just wait cause now i only left with one so nothing much would had happen........ Well just hope thing will true out well and truly well la........ well this will be maybe be my last post on this blog but i will try to update my blog if i can before any of this thing like now.......... truly a big THANK YOU for those who support me and for BABY,I LOVE YOU. byebye:(

Will you ever notice me and love me again...

~~Sunday, March 28, 2010~~

10:59 AM

hello back.....

well sorry baby yesterday i had scare you cause that was no longer my soul but a devil born within me.... well i am also glad that you never left me and trust me for what i had did..... Well i want to shout this out to the whole world!!!!!!!!!

I TOOK MY BABY FIRST KISS!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAA SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well dam funny how i took it.... it was like less than 10 second but seeing her warm smile make me forget all the pain i got on my body..... want to know how i took it???

well it was after she got scare and when my soul return, she ran off crying and that look on her face was like priceless and after i calm her down then i just look into her eyes and i just kiss her..... it was like a short one and then i move away and i saw that warm and nice smile of hers that really make me forget all the bad thing and pain i am going through...... then later i hold her hand and we walk down together and then we went to pizzahut to eat and of cause was my brother treat and we ate like two pizza and drink mushroom soup and baby didn't drink the soup cause she don't like and she also never finish all the pizza cause she said she was full.... zzz then i help her finish then things happen and of course my beloved cousin came to my help and of course nothing happen and that i ask baby to go back x gaming and that later i went back to find her and then we stay there till like 10.30 plus then i send her to the MRT station then before leaving i kiss her again then send her off..... well can tell calvin like my baby and i know my baby got a look of attraction haha BHB.... well after all if a girl heart is with the guy then no matter how many guy are there to ask her for stead she will also not accept. well i know maybe i had been a little mean to baby recently but from now onward i will treat her like a baby of my and shower her with all the love and care i got. well baby i know you don't know how to love a person then i will teach you how to love a person...

well after sending he home we send gina home then we went to slack at under a block then we talk a lot and then i smoke finish my last cig and that for today onward i will start to quit smoking for baby cause from the start she didn't like me smoking and that i will quit for her and i know it was for my own good also so i won't mind la haha baby i know you are the best for me and i love you<3

well that all love to my baby and byebye thanks for all the wish.

Will you ever notice me and love me again...

~~Saturday, March 27, 2010~~

2:03 PM

yesterday after what had happen i finally know that there is no real 'GAN' and more so i will no longer have gan jie or anything anymore...... now only have brothers and no sister..... well at here i shall no longer admit her as my jie anymore and that baby i will forever love you so i will tell you the truth and hope that you will still stay with me cause after all it was your decision and i can't object.....

well a new and stronger soul have been reborn and now it will replace one of the soul which had created enough trouble so it have been replace to carry on my six soul living and now that soul ability have been pass on to another one to protect it ability....... well this soul is now name Bloody Rose so it will now just make people bleed and drink their blood so now who ever come will be a food to him.... yesterday when it was just born ying jie got the first try of it power and i can say it was born DEVIL cause even my own friend it will kill and drink so i can't conform anything........ for one thing i know i hope it won't take the blood of my love one and i will now cast a protection on my love on to protect her from me and any trouble that is finding her...... well i don't know la but anything that is going to happen is going to be real big and just wait within two day i will try to regain all my soul and come out as a new TAKASHI so just watch out... i will no long have feeling for friends but only sister and brother so who ever come shall suffer... well baby i love you forever and hope things won't be that bad after i tell you all this ok.... well this new soul shall now protect the right of my body and i can say i won't hesitate to lay hands on anyone and now all my brother and sister at 7 floor will be there to help me so watch out ok.......... I WAS BORN DEVIL AFTER I SOLD MY SOUL SO I SHALL CARRY MY DEVIL WORK TO HELP ALL 7 FLOOR THING TO BE STRONGER AND MUCH MORE MERCILESS.......... SO WHO EVER WANT TO SELL THEIR SOUL COME TO ME AND JOIN ME TO TAKE THIS JOB TO TAKE SOUL TO MAKE OURSELF STRONGER AND OUR GOOD BROTHER AND SISTER.......... well i know after taking up this job there must be a gardian and that i maybe appoint someone to control me and i will only tell those who can tame me down who is it...... so only those who will help me shall know how to return my soul back when that Bloody Rose won't want to go down so just wait and see........

I AM NOW A NEW PERSON WHEN BLOODY ROSE COME OUT SO BEWARE AND DON'T GET KILL........

At here i want to thank Lee Si Xian for giving me this GREAT CHANCE to be a new person and to be heartless just like YOU so who ever come over now is neither my enemy or my brothers so watch out.........

Well i have many doubt about this thing so i will now play with you all and see whether Bloody Rose will want to come out to settle this thing... If even bigger,i will ask my boss to come and talk to you at NIGHT........ well for all i know now god couldn't have the power to tame those thing down when there is someone giving them power and strenght but at here i would promise my baby that i will not turn that evil till it scare you ok and hope you will never see Bloody Rose unless there is no choice ok? sorry baby but it is my job now that i can carry out anytime of the day so i will have to finish my job........ if Bloody Rose ever come out and you are there don't be scare cause i will try not to hurt you.......... PROMISE.......... that all and i will try to let loose this few day and wait only........... but if there is no other choice don't blame me for calling him out cause no one will ever like him........ BYE BYE that all............. update on monday if possible.

Will you ever notice me and love me again...

~~Friday, March 26, 2010~~

10:42 AM

haha yesterday dam happy cause finally jesslyn♥ accept me as my girlfriend but some how she accept me in a very funny way la and dam playful too♥ well baby i will love you much more than your ex and shower you with more love than ever you had imagine... haha well now that you are my stead and that yup you truly very cute and kinda of love you too much.... well baby i love you a lot lot and hope we will last long...... haha shocking is ying jie also got a stead and that we had even challenge each other seeing who will last long but guess it will be a joke la.....

well now going to find a new job but still will be working at my father friend there la and that although the pay is low but still can be enough for me to eat and play la....

well now that i am with you then i will quit smoking just for you as you don't like people who smoke and that hope that we will have our own ring.... well sorry to those who had waited for me........ well not that you are not good but is just that neither you are not my cup of tea or just that i don't think that we are made for each other... well baby you know you remind me of someone but i can't remember who is it but you are kind of cute and i will never made the mistake that i had made on my stead and that hahah i will love you more than ever........

well thanks to those who have help me and that now that 3 of my soul have return and that there is just anotehr two more so now nothing much could have happen and can say i had turn more evil than ever so who ever come my way will be killed unless my baby is there to control me haha.... well now even gina or those who have knew what had happen to me will be able to control me anymore cause it is not pure good but it is devil who i had sold my soul to that why but i had already told them that i wanted a normal life so they won't come and disturb unless there is someone who i wanted to kill other than that it won't happen and i hope baby won't see my that other side cause it won't be the old baby you had knew and now i had know my soul was rip apart and that they had been rip into 6 part and if all came back together then my soul will be complete and i will be much stornger and not that weak anymore...... well want to bring my baby around to have fun and to buy lot lot of things for her and treat her much better... well from now on i didn't cry to sleep anymore or even turn weak anymore and just watch out.... if i were to ever see you again then beware i won't have mercy on anyone anymore other than all those who are my friend and who are close to me. well now i will have to go fetch baby so later come back x gaming and just watch her play already.... haha so bye bye....... hope you won't see me on the road cause i am no longer the old takashi and don't get jealous if you see our lovely act cause it was you who give up on me first cause whatever i did was for you and i had knew this would come so i don't blame you but now i am fucking happy that i had forget you and live on much happier than you... so lifeless.... well that all love you forever baby♥ Bloody Rose live on for jesslyn♥

Will you ever notice me and love me again...

~~Thursday, March 25, 2010~~

3:22 PM

haha
i had been fired 3 days ago for that stupid case and that i don't even get my pay for that fuck that fucking boss......
well yesterday went to slack with my dear jie then got police came and check us and what the fuck the police say what i ran away from home and that was like 2003 like 7 years ago then like what the fuck la... police are so slow lor 7 years later then found me haha stupid police....

well haha so happy now that i have plenty of sleep eac h day and now i still have a job working for my father friend that is at 216 hawker haha... so slacky there and each hour i earn 5 buck wquite worth it... haix have to get my I phone as soon as possible... but have to pay half and now i only got like 100 with me still need 200 sian....
well recently will not update too much as i have no feeling of using com but if i use i will update la. well now have to go work already sian...... then later go buy cig and then go slack again with ying jie maybe go find jie:)

well haha
good that you have break with him and now i tell you i am going to make you my girlfriend.... haha well just hope you will say yes la.. time we spend are short but you do enjoy each moment wah right??? well baby i love you and hope you will agree soon.. bye bye love you.

Will you ever notice me and love me again...

~~Monday, March 22, 2010~~

10:16 PM

well today went off from work at around 10 plus then go my cousin house which is jasmine house and we watch movie there and it is a horror movie then i went home after that then went to bath sleep from 3.30 to 6.30.. which is like only 3 hour a day.....

tomorrow i will maybe just stay at x gaming and that now at here got a bad new to say that is i maybe going to be fired for my mistake yesterday cause i was playing DOTA yesterday then never see the amount carefully and ask my friend to help me collect the money...zzzzzz
well not like this is the only job i got although i like my job now.... and i would like to thank shu ling here cause although it was not her fault and yet she help me try to say good word in front of that stupid derek who think himselg like one big shot. stupid... well now that thing have turn around and maybe going to job hunt again but see whether gina want or not then we two work together lor... well tomorrow see what shu ling say lor and after all i would like to thank her la cause after all she did help me but now i worry is whether if i got fired,then will there be enogh staff to look after x gaming cause heard gina and ah hua going to leave and that heard some say ying hong also but i don't know whether all of this information is reliable or not la but i will see how x gaming will look like when they keep don't want to hire people and making staff working for 12 hour without give OT pay... what the fuck... i ask some say go complain to MOM then this stupid fucking boss will be in trouble cause this is over working worker and there are no OT pay some more singapore law say each working can maximum work 8 hour but if over need to pay OT... haix don't care la..... now all i want to know is whether can i still work at x gaming and if can maybe i will just see how lor anyway it is not that good la this job cause even rossfire got provide meal to staff and free gaming hour but here don''t have some more pay there is higher than here.... well i don't know la. b ut if i got fired here i will go crossfire work lor anyway it is still near XD

well i don't know la but it is like people already don't love you anymore so what for hanging on to this hopeless relationship? ask you things you told me this and that and i know la it is not easy for you to forget but time will heal wound and let me be there to protect you from harm And i will take good care of you la.... now all i am waiting is your yes answer only that all... i will treat you well and never to hurt you.... well i will be there for you if i can ok so if there is anything you want me to help i will try my best la... well hope thing will get better as each day passby...... i love you.

well i will see again when to post another one la but hopefully is tomorrow night la and maybe i will have my answer la. well BB and thank you for tagging me. BB

Will you ever notice me and love me again...

~~Sunday, March 21, 2010~~

7:18 PM

sian now working and time only like 07.19pm... sian cause take over ying hong early then he go find his friends... sometime really envious ying hong la... got so many friends. don't know why but just feel that way...

fuck sian yesterday never count correctly and now short of $40..... sian have to try cover back the money so shag la..... well it is also don't know why but i am scare that one year later something will re-surface again but i don't know what is it...... what to do??? just see what is it lor... hope it is not a bad thing...

fuck injure my hand and it is my right hand sia... fucking pain. well have to bear with it lor.... feel like sleeping now. fuck so early only want to sleep...

haix why won't you just give up him and just stead with me.... is it that hard to just give up on him??? anyone who heard it will think the same way... he don't love you at all... what for bother giving him a chance? haix now don't know but just wait lor. what else.... well thanks to the two girl whom came and pei me today in the morning. well thanks and i am sorry but in audition i would like to remain single and nothing else... i just want to wider my social circle and meet more new friends that all but it will also be a trouble if my stead ask me why i got so many girls friend and not boys.... well hope you will accept me la... now waiting is the only way la but i find it weird that is why i message you always say don't know but when i ask you face to face you say no.... weird... haix later then post more or tomorrow then post bah... now i only want more and more money so i don't mind over working myself cause by 21 i want to owned my own house and stay by myself and hopefully by the next month my i phone will come la cause now my phone got problem then have to remove the battery to charge only... sian... fucking fuck up with my phone.... now only thing is earn back the $40 to fill back what i lost or i will have to pay out... sian...... now fucking feel like sleeping so hopefully tomorrow can go sleep and wake up for work bah... sian......later at night then see got what update lor....

LOVING SOEONE IS NOT EASY AND TIME WILL COME TO A MATTER TO SEE WHAT YOUR STED LOOK LIKE. hope you will get over it and don't go girls home la... after all it is not a good place wah... best of wish to my new friend and i will always remember you all.. thanks :)

Will you ever notice me and love me again...

12:18 AM

today after work wanted to go home but it was raining heavily outside so i never go home and just sleep at XG then around 1 plus eryc came down then ying jie called me then i faster wake up.... fuck la never sleep....-.-
then went to eat the go back XG play com then those three kid came again then i pei her play BlackShot and teach her how to play. well can say la she is a fast learner and that i also had fun with her....
well can say la she is very softspoken and that she can say quite shy la haha...
well then work that time i blow my top cause i can't find people IC and a lot of error. sorry to blow my top on you and cause you to be scare sorry:'(
well hope you did have fun today and hope that you will break with your current stead to be with me... well it is what everyone will say la... where got be a stead till like this one...... well now working and i feel like sleeping already fuck sia... then tommorrow still cannot sleep but maybe go home and sleep or i will have to stay awake till monday are night then can sleep sian... hope not working lor.zzzzzzz haix want to sleep how....
well can say la i not a playboy the first thing ok so just trust me once la haix....... well going to play game now so Bye Bye^^

Will you ever notice me and love me again...

~~Friday, March 19, 2010~~

9:11 PM

haix... look like my life soon going to change to night life already...
now at x gaming and later jie coming and ask me resevre com-.- but never mind... now working so sian.... kind of like my job now although slacky but fun and a lot of thing to do but got time to slack....
well didn't get a chance to talk to you face to face alone but i will pei you sms at night la..... well hope one day we will be together and i love you haha....
well today whole day not at home... came out around 2 plus then never go home... yesterday ton at xg then go home sleep sian....
haha finally got back my sim card cause that time almost got stolen but lucky got the uncle or i don't know what to do... fuck that two malay....
well have to work till morning and can say la it is good at less i can play...

well can say la i seriously fell in love for you and i know now you can't accept me is ok i will wait.... hahahaaa
joke la but if you accept me and we are together then what i said was true... all my stead are younger than me by the number of stead i had... haha
hope you will see what i type la...
well i don't know what to say la but i miss you and i hope to see you... sian now have to work somemore must have at least $380+ sale... sian now carry on working and slowly message you lor... haha
miss you and i love you..... bye bye tommorrow then post but at night cause TOMMORROW WORKING AT NIGHT!!!!!!
haha but i will enjoy. well thanks to those whom had help me and thanks 7 floor"good brother" for creating the chance for me to forget things and protecting me at the same time and help me disturb those whom had always be bad to me...

For now my life have reborn and i will live like this forever...Bloody Rose will leave on for another person but will never be you again. HOPE I WILL FOREVER REMAIN LIKE THIS FOREVER...

Will you ever notice me and love me again...

~~Thursday, March 18, 2010~~

10:40 AM

haix back at xg working.... today only see a few people some more sale like only $3 at time 10.41...
yesterday dam bad luck la
the day before saw people jump down building then yesterday while working give wrong IC to people then handphone almost lost...
what the fuck sia.......
lucky my phone got come back thanks to one uncle who chase them and get back
well those two little boy better watch out!!!! if i saw you two at xg then you die.... haha miss you jie and all those who always pei me chat.....
what the fuck la....
hope today will be better and haha i am going to earn big buck today if i can hahahahaaaaaaa
well haix how i wish you can don't give him another chance cause it is like waiting for a person is so painful you know but waiting is also another kind of love haha so i will just wait... well you remind me of someone sia... well yesterday was my treat la ok hahahaaaa
bye bye.... going to work XD

Will you ever notice me and love me again...

~~Wednesday, March 17, 2010~~

12:18 PM

haix.... working at x gaming and now use com to make this blog...
well haha so happy now got a blog and that my life have turn once again without me knowing.....
who is SX that hui xian is talking and why when i think of it i will have a headache??? who the fuck is she???
is she someone i know???
why i don have memories of it anymore????
so fuck up now!!!!!!
haha....
now wooing a girl but she got stead but like don't have... haha
kind of like her don't know why... she remind me of someone but i don't know who is it......
well now working and i will try to update my blog everyday la hahaahahahahaaaaa
this Saturday maybe going watch movie hahaahaaaaaaaaaaaaa
well i wish to thank Sx personnally but like i don't know how she look like then how am i going to??? well heard she will come x gaming so i will just wait..... for all i know my life now is at the best moment and i hope more things will come along and not remembering who SX is if i paid it for a price... haha lazy to post more... tomorrow i will post again go play game now yahhhhhhh:)

Will you ever notice me and love me again...