hello reader, back to posting in my blog again.........



recently a lot of things happening and i am so shag now that i don't have the mood to bother about things again.......



at home,just yesterday, my mother try to kill herself and started drinking dettol quite a few cup and try to jump down the buliding...... shag sia, everything is like my fault and i am just trying to fight for my own right that all wah... is it that hard to just fight for my own right........ is like everything in this world is like my fault and i can't even fight for my own right.... i really dont know what to do but i will stay strong and face every problem myself after all that is how i am from the past.......




well to all my friend whom i have known from the world not within me, well it is to say sorry that i have been ignoring you all cause nowadays i have too many problem and i dont know who to face to:( truly how that i will find someone whom i can talk my true heart out and that who can understand how i feel....... for those who have betray me and hate me, i leave it so cause after all for now what you did is like useless, why would i want to waste energy to hate somebody when hating the person drain up so muych energy? what the point? why not just let down the hate and try making friend with that person? like what i heard from a officer,another friend better than another emeny... that sentence make me think alot and i think he say was right... so i dont give a dam and gina i here tell you that all those money that i owe you i will try my best to pay you back asap and that i hope nothing will pop up again or maybe i will start to keep my distance from you........




well to say la, recently i have been think of you lor, is like ya the time we spend is only like 2 months but this 2 month to me is like 2 years already and i truly can't forget you and even to let go of you, i think of those time we spend at xg,tampine,bugis and even vivo and those moment are forever in my heart and i like keep on missing you,to say truly la, i miss the time we spend together, those time when i kiss you,hold your hands,hugging you, is like i can't forget those thing already and to tell you, i truly hope to talk to you everyday and chat with you and be there for you when you need me the most cause i love you too much..... i still remember that time you ask why i love you, now i tell you. i love you cause i love those time where you have to make me worry. i love you cause i love the time where you always hug me, i love you cause even if there are other girl out there much more beautiful girl out there,but i still love you cause you are the most beautiful girl in my heart and in my eyes,i love you cause i know that i shouldn't love you but i dont know why but i just love you..... it is like when we are together i feel that all the the stress and trouble in my life have some how disappear....... for now, i shall truly and whole heartedly wait for you and of course hoping that my life will turn back normal.... well now i only worry is one thing. how you look at me after all those thing that have happen to me as you know quite a lot of thing and i am very scare that you will not love me cause of that only cause after all you only heard one side of the story and i didn't get a chance to tell you my part... well to say la, after i remember everything,i start to miss you more and more and that those memories seem to stop forgetting itself causing me to miss you more and more... well i truly hope one day i can send you a message and start talking to you and be friend with you.... for that i won't bother what other people say or even think cause it is my life now and i have the freedom to run my own life,not other running it. well at here if you happen to see it, i give you an advise that is, you can't study alone without help so not just try to read your textbook more and ask people who know how to the question and if can try ask teacher for help cause teacher know how to do it and sometime got a more easy method to do it... well for math try doing your textbook exercise and if you can try playing some smooth music, it will help you to focus more and relax your mind more..... and before you sleep try reading your textbook once and think of it when you are sleeping, the next day you will find out that you can remember it already... well good luck for you mid year and do your best ok? hope you will do well and even if you don't do well, you youself know that you did your best and try to acheive a better result for your end of year lor. well hope that thing between you and me turn out well. well i will be always there for you if i can and i will wait for you till the day you become me again:)








well that all i will post and hope i will update soon again.....